I Try To Live Without Regrets
This is the Jonas Brothers’ Paranoid. I’ve been listening to my Demi Lovato Pandora station in order to power through homework, and almost every other song is a Jonas Brothers song (for good reason of course), so I’m getting back into this type of music. Though this song came out when I was only 10, I still listen to it and love it. It’s a very random video, so do be warned, but the ending makes up for it and it’s pretty good quality for the 2000s. I’ve been pretty busy lately, with the end of the school year coming up-it’s very stressful and emotional to say the least. So it was super nice to take a field trip today and get away from it all of course, but it turned out differently than I expected. So there’s this guy who I had a major crush at the very beginning of the school year, but since then I have gotten to know him better and realize how stupid I was to have a thing for him. Anyways, we are friends now and today while we were hanging out, all my ensemble members (fellow theatre kids) were joking that we were a couple. And it didn’t help that when I was trying to convince them that I don’t like him anymore, I started blushing like crazy out of embarrassment (it happens all the time considering I have pasty skin and am constantly warm). Later on, he decided to tell me “If it makes you feel any better, I would date you, just so you know.” So of course I ask what that means because I do not deal with cryptic messages well. Apparently, if we weren’t in theatre together (because it’s advised not to date within the department), he would date me. Still figuring out how to deal with it right now, because he’s not quite what I’m looking for in a relationship, but I have been really craving one lately. Because most of my friends are avoiding me due to the move and the fact that furthering friendships is almost waste of time, I have really wanted someone to really be there for me as of late. Sorry for the rant. We will see what happens and of course I will update you. Until later, know that your wishes may come true a little later than you’d expect.